Tears

I've shed a lot of them tonight. Why? I don't really know. I guess it's the first moment I've had to sit down and watch some of the slide shows.commentary on President Hinckley. I've been so busy and life has been so noisy, that the peace and quiet of tonight game me time to think. What an amazing life that he led and I am so very thankful that I had the opportunity to learn from him. He helped me to be a better person and I will miss him and his dear, sweet smile. It's so strange to think that he's not here, but it makes me so thankful for the knowledge that I have- that I do know exactly where he is and who he is with. That thought makes me smile.

Then I checked in on this blog. I have it linked in my sidebar under "A Beautiful Blog." If you haven't checked it out- you must. It makes me live my life differently and I can honestly say that I am a different mother because of her story and her thoughts. Her little girl, Ava, passed away almost a year ago. Her last couple posts are especially heartbreaking, I'm sure because the one year anniversary of Ava's death is approaching. She has the most amazing thoughts and reflections- not to mention, she is an unbelievable photographer and her pictures are breathtaking. Oh- just thinking of it makes me teary. I can't imagine going through what she has endured this last year. She has taught me that EVERY MINUTE of EVERY DAY matters and that I need to take the time to love, really love/hold/cuddle my kids, because I know she would give anything to have 5 more minutes with her daughter. What an amazing women- I only hope this next year will bring her more peace and happiness, she deserves it.