Yesterday we were able to find out both things. Baby looked great. Moved around a lot! All the organs, bones and other things looked perfect and it measured right on for where I am in my pregnancy. It brings tears to my eyes when I think of the blessings of 5 healthy, happy, beautiful children. As they looked over my baby, and the ultrasound tech continued to comment about how everything looked perfect- I thought of all those other mom's who don't get the same news. Who walk into that room with the same hopes and dreams that I did, that day- only to receive bad news. My heart was overflowing with gratitude, that again, our baby looked just perfect. For sure- that was the most important news we received yesterday. Heavenly Father continues to bless our family- in more ways that I can even comprehend.
But finding out that WE ARE HAVING A GIRL was definitely pretty exciting!
Honestly, I had all my fingers and toes crossed for a baby girl. I do love my boys and I would have been just fine with a boy (really!) but wow, I sure was hoping for a sister for Addison. That's what it really came down to. I have always dreamed of Addie having a sister, just like I have. It's such a blessing- a best friend for life.I think I was more anxious and excited about this ultrasound than the last 4. After getting the news, I just couldn't stop smiling. Of course this pregnancy definitely seems real now that I am 20 weeks, but finding out the gender is so exciting. I love to be able to pray for "her" now, or be able to refer to "her" when we are talking to the kids. I can't believe how much I already love her and am so thankful and honored to be her mommy.
I just want to take a minute to record my feelings, so that when my children read this many years from now, they will know how much their mommy loves them. As I sit here, thinking of their sweet faces, their strong healthy bodies and their sunshine smiles, I can't stop the tears. I had no idea, 7 years ago, how much these 5 little people would change my life. They mean everything to me. I would do anything for them and to ensure their happiness and health. I am amazed at how my heart keeps growing, with each new addition, and the love just multiplies. My goal for my children is simple- I want them to be happy, I want them to know their Savior, Jesus Christ and to love Him, just like I do. I want them to find happiness from choosing the right. I want them to be thankful, compassionate, kind people- who love each other and have a heart that is willing to serve. That's not asking too much, is it??
I guess it's time to wrap it up. The little ones are both still in bed upstairs, waiting for me. I am off to be a mommy- and I couldn't be happier about that.
